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I had a great weekend

Monday, March 1st, 2010

I had a great weekend. Saturday morning one of my nurses Sam Snyder put on a fundraiser for my at Crossfit Asylum. It was a lot of fun and there was a great turnout. About 40 people came out to compete to raise money for me. It was so much fun and such an honor to witness it. I met some of the kindest people I have ever met. I feel so grateful.

Saturday night my mom and I got tattoos. I got a plumaria with the ovarian cancer ribbon through it on one wrist and my daughters names on the other. The Plumaria means, inner beauty, liveliness and positive attitude so I thought I would shoot for that. It is also one of my favorite flowers and something I will never forget about Hawaii.

Sunday I went to church with my mom and I got to have lunch with some friends I haven’t seen in 6 years. It was a great day.

What keeps me going

Wednesday, February 10th, 2010

I got an email today from a man who has a friend fighting ovarian cancer. He thanked me for sharing my journey and how I had helped him be a better friend to her because of it. It made me very emotional because when I started this journal I had no intentions other than keeping family and friends updated during the process and to document the journey for my small children. Honestly I started my blog for my daughters if, god forbid, I didn’t make it. I wanted them to know that I fought and how often I thought of them during that battle. They are so small and I can’t bare the thought of them forgetting me or ever questioning how I felt about them. There have been days in this journey when it seems so hopeless and I have thought if I didn’t have them I might just give up and let the cancer kill me. I know that is not what I want but there are days when the pain is so much and the emotion so overwhelming that you question your ability to win the fight. It’s people like Josh, the people on Facebook who say I have changed them for the better and my kids that keep me going. I want people to know that the best thing you can do when you are on the bottom of the stack is to keep climbing to the top. You will fall sometimes but you just dust off and climb again.