So here begins a new journey, I am moving into my own condo this week and starting a new chapter. It has been a long hard road the last few months but I have found some bits of joy along the way. Each day that I spend with my girls is priceless, especially since they have been gone to grandparents most of the summer. I heard little girls laughing in the distance at softball practice yesterday and I kept looking to see if it was my two. My heart aches to spend time playing with them but I know that during this time of transition time to play at the grandparents is a great distraction. They will be back with me soon and we will get settled into our new life. This new life is starting to feel a little better. I am getting used to my independence and starting to see some major light in my days. I find myself in moments of happiness lately, something I thought was kind of gone. I have some amazing people in my life that have shown me that I am worthy of love, respect and even FUN. I have been spending time with some new friends and growing my relationships with some old ones too. It’s exciting to see where things will end up.
I like my job for the most part, it’s a lot of standing and some stress but I like the reward of being praised for my skills and talents with the guests. It reminds me that I do have worth under there somewhere. I am doing well enough that 2 departments are fighting over me lol. It’s hard to decide where I really want to be. Part of me wants to really work towards a long term future here and part wants the heck out of here. Only time will tell.
My leg is still swelling a lot. It’s super frustrating but I refuse to let it get me down. It’s just part of the journey at the moment. Dr. Perez(my surgeon) was at the hotel last week and he was surprised by how well I looked and was doing. His wife came up and talked to me and asked what was my diagnosis ect, I told her that Dr Perez told me I would be lucky to live 4 months back in Nov ’09. Her comment to me was “He’s not God” It put a huge smile on my face. She hugged me and told me she would pray for me as they headed for home. I will be seeing Dr Zuckerman later this month also at the hotel so we will see what he has to say at his visit and I will see him for blood work in early August. Well off to work, time for another beautiful day….
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