During this fast I have really learned about my fear of being “without”.  Before the fast I would eat things I normally wouldn’t because I knew I was going to be without soon.  I developed a new respect for eating disorders because when Darick and the girls stopped for a burger and fries(which never happens because we don’t have any here) I could visualize my self eating the entire bag of fries and then purging it from my body.  I have never been like that in my whole life…I didn’t eat the fries if you’re curious :)  I just don’t want to fast anymore.  I think short frequent fasts would be better for me.  I hate how I can’t really focus while fasting and it makes it hard to be a mommy.  I’m not good at laying low and doing nothing but when I try to do things I feel weak, nauseous and dumb.  Day 7 so almost there…

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